let's get crazy

Let's get crazy,
Talk about our big plans
Places that you're going
Places that I haven't been
Build my walls up
Concrete castle
Keep this kingdom free of hassle, yeah

When I am interested in a guy and he moves too fast I will immediately be turned off. No questions asked. If I like a guy and he moves too slow I will become bored and move on. There is a window of opportunity where it has a chance to move forward. Some people judge based on a first date, nope I judge on if they make a move in that window of time. If they don't are they really worth my time? My answer is no.

I've always wondered how divorced people adjust to not having the other person with them at big events. By getting married you're promising to be there for each others big events for forever. I don't know how every time they go somewhere they don't think that whoever their ex spouse is should be there too. I think that would be the part that hurts long after the initial pain. Of course, I haven't been married or divorced so I'm not sure. I have been hurt though, and sometimes I think that about you. I go somewhere and think you should be there too. I know with more and more time that will pass-we didn't promise forever.

I have a perpetual feeling of nervousness, when I have nothing to be nervous about. Thus, I feel sick and on edge. I think I have a hunch where it is coming from, but I don't know how to make it stop. I keep trying to convince myself that it isn't anything, but I think until that's proven the feeling will stay. Urg. 

I need to go to bed.

Is it Friday yet?