Eyes Open

“There is a sense in which I am pretty sure this makes no sense. I don’t know where this is going. I don’t know how it ends.”

I'm neglecting this blog this month. My sincere apologies. Beware this blog is all over the place.

I'm taking concurrent courses again. I actually like these classes, I would like anything that is not a research class. I just got Harriet Evan's new book. I'm trying to find time for joy reading. I miss joy reading, and quotes. I used to read quotes at least an hour a day. I still read a couple quotes a day, but it is not nearly as many as I would like. Grad school ruins everything-how fast can I be done? August or September. Bye bye summer.

Saint Patrick's Day was a lot of fun. The day consisted of a little drinking and a bad parade. No, it was not any better than last year. That night I went to The Front Porch because I could drink for free then it was off to Jackson's. Ryan finally made me leave. Me him Kirk and Jen all went to the Mellow Mushroom then poor Ryan had to get my home. All in all it was a successful day

I had a meeting at work today and we were talking about draining relationships. It got us talking about forgiveness. I think people forgive people that don't deserve it because they want them in their life. I have been in that situation, I think I'm faced with that situation now. It's difficult because I don't forgive well. I have a hard time letting go of things and moving on with a clean slate. I want to though, does that count? No, probably not.

"Whenever something happens that is not part of your plan, you pretend like it doesn't exist. You act like you're in this movie about your perfect life. Then I have to remind you the only one watching that movie is you."

I'm reading a book about letting go. You have to let go of something in order for something to take its place, but isn't it easier to hold on to the wrong things until the right thing comes along? I have a theory that until the right guy comes along I'll have fun with the wrong guys. Then I remember my taste in guys is atrocious. It would take the right guy hitting me over the head with a brick for me to realize it is him. I just have to have fair that the universe is a lot smarter than I am.

Just when we think we’ve figured things out, the universe throws us a curve ball. So we have to improvise, we find happiness in unexpected places, we find our way back to the things that matter the most. The universe is funny that way, sometimes it just has a way of making sure we wind up exactly where we belong.

it must be love

March is flying by. Dennis was here last weekend. It was a packed weekend. We went to the capital, money museum, Black Hawk, Boulder, Nederlands and a lot of good food places. Did I mention it was Restaurant week? THE BEST WEEK OF THE YEAR. I managed to pack in four restaurants this year. The Palm, Rodizzion, La Fondu and Bayou Bobs. Yummm. Other than that I have been suffering through the hell this is Research Methods. I hate everything about this class. E V E R Y T H I N G. I cannot stress that point enough. Thank goodness it ends Monday.

Today was the Republican Assembly. I hated everything about it, Between the SCREAMING and disrespect. That is not what I signed up for. Though, I did appreciate hearing the rules read in auctioneer banter, I am embarrassed to be a Republican. Also, they were rude. hmph.

Next weekend is Saint Patrick's Day. We are all planning an entire weekend of festivities. AH! So excited :)